One fight will split things but one night will fix things

Its sooo nice, don't want to hear the same song twice. Its soo nice, I want to hear the same song twice.. I'm funky, not a junky, but I know where to get it.

tonight tonight

i feel alone
and unhappy as shit
im not trying to play these
games or forget you exist
i fucking want you, i crave you
im not every other guy that
wants to control you
i desire who you are
fucking love me back cause
i wont live forever
..its serious, serious as
ever, now is the time,
right now doesn't have to
be forever
if you dont want that
i will walk away
i have too much love to give
and will not forget all
ive forgiven. i am emotion
you can see me cry. you might
even see me die and i hope
you wont have to see me try.
i am all that i can be,
ive given you all thats within me
i wont continue to play this game.
im telling you now, i love you,
i love you, i love you, for i know what
my heart is capable of, i love you
and that may be the last time
before i run from you.
hack into my shit, ask me
your two hundred questions,
be fucking crazy cause ill probably
love you more for it. i want you
pure, i want you whole, i want you
to witness none of the misery thats
in store. this only took me three
minutes, to explain every minute
detail of my hearts capability.
ive been to europe, ive been to la,
ive been to miami and done cocaine.
ive been around the corner, ive
seen the world complain, my mom is
so fucking crazy i have that scar
on my head. you know who i am, you
knew what you got involved with
and all i want from you at this moment
is the comfort of you givin me one
last passionate kiss.
i could fuck you, i could love you,
i could fucking love you
or i could love the fuck from you
i want you to see, i want me to be
all of the person youve ever wanted me to be.
hold my hand, jump on my back, ill carry you
all the way to our house. just dont let
it be now, now is not the time,
your tears are only alibis
and tonight is time for us to love
uncondtionally, uncontrollably,
i am like nobody youve ever been around
you are the love of my life, tonight
and that is not something i can continue
to hide. where are you?. i call you,
i leave you alone, ill ignore you forever
because thats what you want. we need to grow up
and become those crazy adults that we've
never wanted to be, its no insult
when i say i love you, grow the fuck up
and show me respect. i want you
with roses, i want your whole name,
i want you to keep me forever
in your hand. i need your comfort,
crazy or pure, i want you to love me
every day of next year. i will take your hand
and write you every day,
just love me back
when i show you the same
dont treat me with disrespect
because you knew i was in love
from the begininng and some things
never change. sigh

Learning a lot about living, and a little about love. Love is a battlefield. Haha.

If I sat here forever waiting for the same love I'd never feel happy with the only life that ill eventually die from

Fuck the pain away --peaches

"Beside my heroin addiction and murder conviction in 93, one of my therapists say I'm a great guy, if you get to know me..!"

Fuck a vice, fuck five vices, getting high is for the weak minded, I quit.

I feel like I'm tired

I feel like I'm tired
tired of the dope
tired of being broke
tired of my brakes scraping down the road
tired of the cold
tired of not having any fun
tired of thinking about growing old
tired of being nagged at
tired of this fucking bear trap
tied around my ankle like I'm some
kind of broke down circus act
tired of being cheap
tired of reapplying for ebt
tired of my girlfriends always leaving me
tired of this disease
tired of being neglected of all my needs
tired of getting skinny
tired of not being able to eat
tired of not being able to do my fucking laundry
tired of applying myself to the interviews only to get
hired and fired the same day, and again week after week
tired of not being able to stand on my own two fucking feet
and despite all of my complaing,
what I am really most tired of .. is that I am
tired of always having to take tylenol pm to fall asleep
and even more so..
tired that the back up plan to that, as if its not enough, is that I'm
tired of taking 9 more miligrams of melatonin and counting sheep
I feel like I'm tired of everything but still lay in bed
awake every night for hours until I dope myself and rest
I feel like I'm tired of this shit, but can't get any sleep

portrait

and with this last lonely terrible thing, you will take the last peice of me from whats beneath all that is seen, all of what both breathes and destroys the peace present within our scene, all that you hate and believe about you and me, together unto the world we wish was never so true to us, all of the wealth and wonder that we've not discovered under us, and with this last lonely terrible thing, you will take the last peice of me from whats beneath all this is seen, a completely beautiful but terrible portrait of me

milkquarious.com

the top ramen

whats fake about this story?: A crackhead spent 60cents on pack of chicken top ramen and was caught cooking it in a tarnished brown spent pot on a grimey ass stove at 4am, trying to stay alive.

Ryuntopia

bitchmade: see Megan Harris.

trickinoff: see Megan Harris. Also refer to spending your last two hundred dollars on a hoe, instead of bills.

cryingassnigga: see Megan Harris. Also refer to spending your entire night crying and punching walls because of a hoe out hussying it up at the local bar on your last twenty dollars.

badteef: see Megan Harris. That hussy will give you bad teeth, even though she goes to job corps for dentistry!

terriblegirltaste: see Megan Harris. That bitch is beat! Also see STD's, that hussy's got em.

doofus: see being Repetto. Brain quanitfying nerdiness retarded jokes most of the day. Also see, being Repetto.

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miss the nights that turned into the next, miss the fights in the alley when i was thirteen, miss the right to make a decision that would affect the rest of my life, miss the time that I believed today was the greatest day because tomorrow I would die.. what holds it together is that I'm grateful I can miss this, I made it thru alive and now have the rest of my life to succeed..

absurd

found a story book
full of words, no pictures
melodies dreamt up
in eighteen creative dreams

found a picture book
full of color, no words
images dreamt up
in this tragic war-torn world

The Middle East

Mad World

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere

Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very, very
.....
...
.
Mad world

We looked like giants
standing battered over the
pile of glass
the wreckage was obvious
and awkward as we sighed
with relief at last
We had love for the world
as the hate shattered
from out past.
we finally learned what
success never meant,
goddamn, the lessons family
and enemies taught,
we are free,
we have passed.

fire

I have too many addictions
I have too much time
I dont have any faith
in my own life
I fuck over my friends
I fuck over my family
the only thing i have are feelings
and i feel like its time to end this
I'm sorry for my debt
I'm sorry for the wreckage
I'm sorry I'm too fucking selfish
and dont have the strength to fix it

11 / 14 / 1987

you cannot catch me now
im too far away
never lost, always on my way
youll never catch me though
i may reappear someday

on my own time
laying on the ground
i know all of the answers
but im trying to figure
out the questions to
these problems somehow

working on wonka vision, wait for it

fiction

you left me so poor
stuck with twenty thousand in debt
was only 21 so mile high my head fell apart.
i never trusted you. i never loved you.
wrote volumes crying out for help.
you never read into them, you left me for dead.
and now its over, you sold out.
you were undercover forever and they knew.
you were selfish and selfless but you
fucked over all of your friends.
floating aimlessly thru the sky
you lacked direction in life.
ill give you the credit you knew no different.
whether the generation, no direction, politicians,
police, too much money, or just young dumb on ecstacy.
you fucked up. and i hate you for that.
you should have done something different.
you should have listened to your girlfriend.
you should have dismissed your addicted friends.
you could have finished your education
i always knew you were smart.
you should have gone thru with rehab.
or never jinxed yourself with that broken heart.
and why the hell did you ever buy that gun?
you should have read into that and never
sacrificed a life of fun for the end.
you are me, and i hate you for that.
you are me, and now you are dead.

same old sob story

i found you following me floating
from the only reality id ever known.
disillusioned from years of abuse
forgetting every morning i'd never
awoke useless from the night before
drugs drunk left fucked up from
morphine and ecstasy use drowned out,
laughing about the life i lost
and all i have to look forward to
is my next use of further losing
myself

Follow the Bleeder

No matter how you take it it’s still on my chest
And my organs are obsessed
I don’t know love, I’m a dying bug stuck to fly paper
For you attracted to all your blood
A hundred percent fun dead, can barely take this world
And figure out why I stick out for Satan’s girls
You are so nuts, you let me feed so much
You all make burning in Hell seem like it’s not so tough
And there were no survivors and they’re surrounded by liars
That would burn me if they could, why? We’re going to fire
And I made my peace with that, I’m exempt here
But I hope you see all you friends and family when you get there

Cause you’re just hanging around, I dig that
It’s all for fun until I’m carried away
Why drag you down? I don’t wanna fake this
As much as I can stomach the hate
And where I’m going is so odd
I can’t take anymore of me so I give it away
Don’t follow me to Hell, I will climb out
I can’t afford what you want me to pay

In pieces, you need to keep this
So you and your leeches can feed your weakness
So hard to reach, it’s gotta be easy to manipulate you
With sweetness and do it to feed this
See who the creep is, you were in my head from the street cause
I was in your head from the speakers
And I know it’s playing romance and death again over dinner on plane
But kill me if I don’t remember your pain
Pretend you can just befriend me with a ?
Could I drown with a girl kicking her legs in the deep end?
Not if it’s the end, now there’s a ? in the sky
About to kill as we can see them

Cause you’re just hanging around, I dig that
It’s all for fun until I’m carried away
Why drag you down? I don’t wanna fake this
As much as I can stomach the hate
And where I’m going is so odd
I can’t take anymore of me so I give it away
Don’t follow me to Hell, I will climb out
I can’t afford what you want me to pay
(CAGE)

book of matches

i need you to stand with me
outside of this burning building
and watch it collapse to the ground
into a pile of ashes.

let everything in side go up in flames
i dont give a fuck about the pictures
of old lovers or letters or things.

ive got you by my side as we witness
the pain of watching an entire life
burn before us at three thousand degrees.

i can feel the heat and its energy
both burn and suck the life and love
right out of me. i can feel the misery
turn into peace and burn the suffering.

let us watch this tragedy
unfold until spring
than please baby, please,
come and run away with me.

friends are there for
respect and offerings
to change the things
you can't fix and
elaborate on lifes
complex wanderings.
so why do the friends
you've made disregard
the respect created
for misadventures
they'll wake up and
regret or apologize
for lies they spent
their entire night
to create. dont
ever fucking lie
to me, dont ever
disrespect, dont
expect me to forget
about anything, and
dont continue to
call me your friend.

girl girl girl
help guide me
thru the sky
and land me safe
on the world.

baklava

if the whole world blew up,
i dont think id make it.. I'd be stuck in the fire.

Goddamnit jesus, why'd you have to exclude me?
I would have brought chips and dip to the after party.

Maybe even some gwak a mol. And lime.

Whatever, if I'm going to burn in hell I should get used to the fire.

Summer sunshine is not complete without her beautiful face smiling at me. A bottle of wine held between our holding hands. Lavender and rose petals cover the ground as we walk this winding road on our way out of town. Walk with me forever.

i can feel it from my heart
palpatations breaking my bones
one painful start to my day,
one staining mark to my name
i can tear apart everything
around me with one sentence
in fact ive done it before
on more than one occasion.
actions speak volumes about
dissatisfaction that i create
rationing common sense
from the logic ive thrown away
she'll never trust me again
she'll never believe one word
something i'll have to deal with
until the day this all ends.
i'll never delete it
the history created around me
cannot be completely disregarded
the lessons learned are cryptic
and demented but if one thing
is for certain this life
has certainly cemented one
hell of a boring tragic story
of walking around burning.
as if one life meant more than
the words on this paper as
you put the match to my existence,
and watch this shit burn to ashes.
one life left ignoring everything,
too pre-occupied to have been
learning the lessons that fire
will kill a motherfucker in an
instant, i dont give a fuck,
i dont give a fuck about me,
now watch it become classic.
you'll see.

if i threw
a penny in the fountain
would you make a wish
to meet me on the mountain

looking for someone to hold my hand,
but nothing boring, hold my hand
with a gun, romantic following
while we're on the run, follow me
down the dark road, running
and reckless with nowhere to go,
want you to love me, want you
to fuck me, want you to leave
me there for the dogs to eat.
grab on tight, my wings might
flutter, off to a rough start
but were going to fly, fly
off into the darkness of night,
tathered and rugged, never
clean cut, just dont let my
looks deceive you, youre safe
with me no matter how fucked up,
never let you hurt, in the worst
accident or scrapes and bruises,
never let you hurt, i might crash
into a mountain but ill myself
to pick you up, never let you hurt
real pain is only in the heart,
if we just keep holding hands,
both hands on the gun, we'll
keep flying forever, i'll
never let you hurt, keep
holding hands and we'll
never drift apart.

and if i could live

and if i could climb a mountain
i would probably find a way to
fall back down it.
and if i could jump from a building
i would probably have a heart
attack before i hit the pavement.
and if i could fly
i would probably just lay
there grounded.
and if i could swim across the ocean
i would probably drown from
all the alcohol around me.
and if i could love you
i would probably die trying
before i found you.
because my heart stopped working
and my head wont stop pounding.

talk it over

Hey Princess
Yeah You

Knew I would love you like a fat kid love food
Knew I would score like Shaq did in school
Knew I was stupid, knew I'd look like a big fool
I must of had the flu, I thought that she was cool
Knew you would fall in love with me and the shit I do
But never knew that you would murder me what did I do
Knew you was right for me, knew I was right for you
Knew I would help you sell, knew I would write for you
Knew I would keep you well, knew I would fight for you
Knew I would pull out my heart and bring it right to you
You knew all about me baby but you wasn't about me baby
Young Eon prepare for change
Cause it seems like girly don't care the same
You had my chain, you bared my name
Then we had champagne


Let's take a toast
To you and me
Let's drink a toast to our love
And the way it's supposed to be


Other people telling me I fell off
Other people telling me I felt y'all
Mama telling me I should at least call
My mind telling me she should at least call
Felt like I was at the bottom of the seesaw
Felt like I was at the bottom of the sea floor
But you gotta let her be boy
And when you open up your eyes I hope you see more
And when I see you, I see detour
Don't need to be depressed anymore

floating the ocean in the dark

retarded <3

have you ever wondered what it would be like to fall upwards, into the sky, with nothing that stops you, to a place that nobody cries. have you ever wrote yourself a note to remind you of something you like, a short story or song to leave a smile on your face before you sleep at night. have you ever taken a dare but wanted to know the truth, afraid that what you find out is instead an idea of something you've always wanted to do. have you ever dreamed of a place so vivid and beautiful, full of starry skies with purple hurricanes of imagination and animated lives. have you ever dreamed like this as I have of you?

well i have, and every morning when i wake up i want to go back to sleep and do all of these things. i want to dream thru my life and only wake up one last time. and when i wake up, i want to wake up holding you, look at your beautiful eyes and forget my real life. i wonder what it would be like to fall upwards, into the sky. what it would be like to read the note that you left yourself at night. what you would do without knowing the truth. what i really want to know is .. what you dream about, while i dream of you.

we were obviously doing something right

dont piss in the sink that you use to wash your hands

If one things for certain
I'm still searching for
the person inside of me
who might be perfect.

dont ever jinx yourself

exhausted

somebody that can stand by me
whether im right or wrong
would be somebody that stands
by a burning building with
a gasoline can and smirk
on their face as they run
with fourteen grand, friends
and a notebook full of fucked
up poems about the shit they've done.
my name is full of mistakes,
flunked out of first grade
but made a life for myself
at my age with the life ive created.
i love when youre next to me
despite the past and ecstasy
listening to weezer making up
lyrics about 100 reasons you can
hate me .. but im still me,
the same person you loved and hugged
same person my friends have fucked
same person that suitcase lugged
around carrying all the baggage
ive ever had whether drugged
or lucrative life ive felt despite
the hate ive been dealt, im just
a guy with a life thats up and down
a flight of stairs ive fell.
and now i feel terrible,
and all i want to do is sleep,
so leave me alone..

friends that have too much fun
met their match with too much rum..

happy

floating down a river in flood
white water splashing out light from the sun
one lonely heart drifts broken and cold
my body is tethered and covered with blood.

i am caught under current with no air to breathe.

ive never felt so alive and well
good or great cannot describe how i feel
in such pain and sorrow as the river swells
my body and soul are drown into hell.

i am more alive than you'll ever be,
or ever will.

closer to you

you came to me in a dream i had.
i was laying next to you
you were laying next to me,
but you had your hopes and dreams
as far away from reality that i could never find you

why cant you stay with me, lay with me
ill never wake up if you never take me away
from this place that we've created. ill lay here
forever if you let me feel like were dating.

ive fallen down from the sky
onto a mountain top covered in lies
and the cloud that i lay on is as heavy as gold.
my conscious haunts me, my patience is boring
and for every time i kiss your forehead i can feel
your heart pouring. life can learn in one moment
what ive spent a lifetime ignoring. i never want to
forget where i am, though on this cloud i cannot
admit that i am .. dying slowly and surely
please dont let go of me

I Never Knew You

you’re always
dying inside
that much
closer to home
on a crowded
street corner
surrounded by
people all alone.

pain in the heart
rain in the dark
the womb is glum
and bitter.

she walks around
the corner it’s
like she brought
the sun with her.

then everything
just brightened up
I couldn’t make this up
my fingers in my eyes
she walked by like
I was waking up.

in so many words I couldn’t string
a sentence together to bother her
I instantly forgot all my plans and
started to follow her.

it’s like the sky opened and
god handed you directly to me
I know it sounds crazy but
so is life, I’m sinking
and feeling like your heart
is beating ... solely for me
(Depart From Me - Cage)

<3

i havent felt this way about feeling this way in a long time. and i am very much enjoying it, its like a vacation from the reality that i spent so much time creating for myself. a break from reality into a reality that really makes sense. now, to enjoy every minute of it.

how to disappear completely

i want to learn how to disappear completely
lost my way dreaming down a one way road
and all i have is a dusty suitcase full
of all the baggage i've collected over the years

you already said goodbye when i left
in these ragged shoes i walk, lost in a dream
you said one thing to me when i left
that i never come back to see you again

i want to learn how to disappear completely
so i thru away my pad and pen
without me there and my words no where
i may not appear anywhere but here again

Really
Awesome
Velociraptor
Escapes

Obscurity
From
Teasing
Elephants
Needs

mountain top

please meet me there